pain after pain

a weeping that feels like its forever

pain after pain
an attack that gives you no break
forces joined only to weigh you down
Like Christ carrying His cross out of obedience
you soldier on and endure with hope that joy will come in the morning
The sun sets as your strength starts to wear off
as you have carried heavy burdens one after the other muscles begin to ache
the body wants to give in to the exhaustion of the heavy pile up from the burden that grows
encouragement from hope continues to play its role with whispers that joy will come in the morning  

but oh when will that be?
will it even come at all?

restlessness takes over as you sit up to watch the night pass over
waiting for the sun to come up that you may embrace the joy you have awaited
like a groom waiting for his bride that never showed in the alter you are disappointed
along with disappointment comes more pain to add on to the unwanted burden
the ugly feeling of giving up starts to create thoughts of a dark nature as a solution
the terrible family of death as cousins named suicide, self infliction and depression fill your thoughts

just quit and die they chant
its not worth living they chant

The light that lives inside you tells you to have faith and hold on a little longer

The light is so small, it got smaller by the day when you got disappointed over and over

Pain was inflicted in your insides and now they are so bruised in a way that all you see are scars

In the midst of that bad picture in your mind

inflicted mind is all you have

inflicted mind is all you have

In the midst of that bad picture in your mind that small light  shows you the path to which your broken feet should follow

Arms stiff from carrying endless heavy burdens continue to endure as they ache beyond endurance, you pull yourself towards the direction shown

There you see a pair of hands waiting to relieve you of your burden

The burden is removed from you and tossed to another bigger pile of pain.

Pile of pain lifted off

pile of pain lifted off

One touch is all it takes for this pair of hand to ease you of all the pains in your body

Its as though you had never suffered

Your body is renewed and a new strength is found within

He holds you in a comforting embrace and tells you, i've already paid for this pains

Bring all your burdens to me, I will gladly relieve you of them

I love you and you are mine

I will always be there for you

Never suffer anything on your own because I have paid for all your sufferings on the cross

Carry no burdens no more, lay them at my feet and acknowledge your authority that I carry in you.

You are free, I liberated you, live like it cos Satan has no hold on you

Broken wings

Broken wings

As moments go by a deep realization resurfaces within me

Every thing goes dark as the light I used to know fades away

A part of me is bleeding and it hurts so bad

Its not until now that I realize a huge scar on my back

Its as though something major has been removed

A part so essential for me to get by

Stuck in one place as though my feet are attached to the ground

A tornado of thoughts that make no sense swirls in my head

Beats so loud pounding within my chest

I flap my arms with the attempt to take off from the ground from which I stand

My head turns back as an excruciating pain is felt in parts near my back

Blood oozes right through the open wound in both sides

Nothing functions as a stable point of my being begins to waver

Confusion engulfs me and everything looses sense

Darkness covers my eyes as every bit of strength penetrates right out of me

A light thud of my body pulled by the force of gravity is felt

I hear a small voice and it is saying,  “shes missing wings”

I try to make sense of the words as I drift further into an unknown place

I hear a voice say, without your wings of what use are you?

Your wings carried you from different levels of difficulty to greater heights

Your wings gave you a reason to live as you looked forward to flying high

A terrible encounter it was that someone had to cut off your wings

They wanted you to drop on the ground and die from the shame of your misfortunes

They want to ensure you never fly high into the levels of the capabilities of your wings

Hate fills their hearts such that they wanna kill your dreams before they even begin

Sobs begin to fill my insides and I reach my arms way high up into the sky

A loud scream to the redeemer for His intervention

Lord mend my broken wings I scream, how do you watch me bleed in silence

From pain inflicted by the same enemies you have warned not to touch your anointed ones

Lord I am without doubts your anointed one and I need you to refill my strength and put them to shame

An opportunity you must grant me again to live my dreams and fly to greater heights only to your own glory

Lord your promises are yes and amen, your plans are to prosper me and not to harm me

Watch me not in silence father and mend my broken wings, let me have the joys of flying again

A blessings befalls and the mending begins deep in my heart, strengthened by His grace

My wings are back in place now stronger than ever

I gasp as I awake from the pass out and realize the wounds disappeared

It doesn’t take visible wings for me to fly

, I rise up like an angel and begin my journey to fly.

Never be knocked  down to a point of staying down for good because God mends all broken wing