Consequences of living between realms

Living between realms, has profound consequences on an individual's understanding of reality, perception of existence, and interactions with both the physical and spiritual worlds. Potential consequences could include:

1. Expanded Consciousness: Living between realms leads to a heightened awareness of spiritual dimensions and realities beyond the physical world, potentially leading to a deeper understanding of existence and the nature of reality.

2. Struggles with Identity: Being caught between realms may create a sense of disconnection or alienation from both the physical and spiritual worlds, leading to struggles with one's sense of identity and belonging.

3. Enhanced Spiritual Abilities: Living between realms grants individuals unique spiritual gifts or abilities, such as heightened intuition, clairvoyance, or the ability to communicate with spiritual beings.

4. Ethical and Moral Challenges: Navigating life between realms presents ethical and moral challenges, as individuals may be tempted to use their spiritual insights or abilities for personal gain or manipulation.

5. Isolation and Loneliness: Being one of the few individuals capable of living between realms leads to feelings of isolation and loneliness, as others may not understand or share their experiences.

6. Increased Vulnerability: Individuals living between realms are more susceptible to spiritual attacks or negative influences from malevolent entities, requiring them to develop strong spiritual defenses and discernment.

7. Quest for Understanding: Living between realms, sparks a lifelong quest for understanding and enlightenment, as individuals seek to unravel the mysteries of existence and their place within the cosmos.

Overall, living between realms is a complex and challenging experience, requiring individuals to navigate a delicate balance between the physical and spiritual dimensions of reality while grappling with the profound implications of their unique existence.

Navigating the Switch from Corporate to Agency: A Tale of Unhelpful Advice

 

Transitioning from corporate to agency can be an exciting yet daunting prospect for many professionals seeking a change of pace or career trajectory. However, as one individual discovered, seeking guidance on this transition isn't always met with the most helpful or relevant responses.

In a previous encounter, the I sought advice on making the switch from corporate communications to an agency environment. Anticipating insightful tips and practical steps, I instead found myself met with arrogance and irrelevant commentry.

The conversation started promisingly enough, with me asking to understand the requirements for transitioning from corporate to an agency role. However, the response I received took an unexpected turn. 

Instead of addressing the question directly, the responder suggested starting from the bottom as an intern, completely disregarding the my extensive 10 years of experience in corporate communications.

What followed was a series of presumptions and judgments, with the responder insinuating that I must be bored in my current career, an assumption that was both unwarranted and dismissive. 

As the conversation veered further off track, focusing on generic workplace advice rather than addressing the specific query, I grew increasingly annoyed and disengaged. In my mind asked myself if he was still talking to me and what on earth he was addressing because it sounded like he was addressing something different.

The encounter reached a tipping point when it became evident that he was neither listening nor providing relevant insights. Feeling confused I made the decision to disengage and left the career seminar.

Furthermore, this encounter has left me questioning my desire to switch to agency life altogether. While agencies may offer unique skills and qualities in corporate communications, such as agility, creativity, and adaptability, I worry that the emphasis on competitiveness and hierarchy may overshadow the collaborative and inclusive environment I value in corporate settings. 

I've always believed that work should shape one's character positively, fostering growth and empathy rather than arrogance and superiority. If agency work entails adopting such traits and looking down on others, then I'd much rather remain in the corporate world. Here, I can continue to thrive, leveraging my diverse skill set and contributing meaningfully without compromising my integrity.

This experience highlights a common challenge faced by professionals seeking guidance on career transitions: the tendency for advice-givers to project their own biases and assumptions onto the situation, rather than offering practical and tailored support.

Navigating a career switch requires careful consideration, strategic planning, and access to relevant information and resources. While advice and guidance can be invaluable in this process, it's essential to seek out mentors and advisors who can offer genuine insights and support based on their own experiences and expertise.

While agencies are often praised for their fast-paced, dynamic nature, skills such as pace efficiency, agility, and attention to detail are undoubtedly valuable and can indeed be learned in both agency and corporate environments. Some corporate environments can also provide ample opportunities to develop and hone them.

In corporate communications, for example, professionals are frequently tasked with managing multiple projects simultaneously, often under tight deadlines. This requires individuals to prioritize tasks, work efficiently, and pay close attention to detail to ensure accuracy and effectiveness.

Moreover, corporate environments increasingly recognize the need for agility and adaptability in today's ever-changing business landscape. As companies strive to stay competitive and relevant, employees are encouraged to embrace innovation, think creatively, and pivot quickly in response to market trends and emerging challenges.

Additionally, attention to detail is a fundamental skill that transcends industry boundaries. Whether drafting corporate communications materials, crafting marketing strategies, or analyzing data, meticulous attention to detail is essential for producing high-quality work that resonates with stakeholders and drives results.

Ultimately, while agencies may offer a unique context for developing these skills, they are by no means exclusive to the agency environment. With the right mindset, opportunities, and support, professionals in corporate settings can cultivate and excel in pace efficiency, agility, and attention to detail, contributing to their personal growth and professional success.

The Betrayal Chapter 20

Excitement about the new life

6 months later

Musuku and Masala have been engaged for over three months now and things have been going great since they last made up after the break they had.

They will be getting married in 3 months time and Musuku has been excited about it since, she and Munangwa decided they would be getting married on the same day to minimize costs and also to ensure they both have the perfect weddings they always dreamt of.

The guys have been hanging out a lot and discussing how they could blow the girls minds away and what kind of rings they should get them.

Most of the expenses were being paid for by Masala since he was the rich one among all of them and he had no problems.

Chidzima was now working in one of Masala's companies as the managing director, the dough was coming in big time and he had already started renovating Munangwa's house.

The four are now looking into buying their own houses as they plan to come back to their own houses after their honey moon.

Musuku calls Munangwa to arrange their house hunting date and find out if Chidzima is free to tag along, the girls have been given the upper power to choose the house as this will be their big gifts from their husbands.

"Hey girl, where you at? Should we come over and pick you guys up or will we meet by the mercury square?" Musuku asked.

"let us meet by the Mercury square, I want us to ride together, Masala and I will swop cars or you and Chidzima so I can ride with you, I have things to talk to you about n private" Munangwa responded.

"Alright then bye see you in 15 bits" Musuku said then hung up.

She then called Masala to ask where he was and to tell him to come pick her up so they could go to the mercury square.

Musukus POV

We got to the square and just as I was about to get off Masala pulled me back in and asked where I was going then he pulled me into a deep kiss before releasing me and telling me "now you can go Mrs Masala to be".

I was dumbstruck and I exited his car and went into Chidzima's one while Chidzima went into Masala's one.

"Hello you, how are you doing?" I asked my best friend as I hugged her.

She hugged me back and she had a strange look on her face.

I remembered the dream I had the previous night of a crying baby who was reaching out for me because some evil forces were trying to draw out her soul.

I told Munangwa about it and she started to cry, we swooped seats so I could drive and I asked her what was wrong as I hugged her, she just continued sobbing uncontrollably and the next thing I heard a loud knock on the window.

It was Chidzima and he wanted to know if Munangwa was okay and why she was crying, we told him she was okay and that he shouldn't worry about her, he walked around the car to go open her door side and then pulled her into his arms and kissed her forehead.

I couldn't help but think they are very adorable and I am happy my friend is getting married to someone who really loves her.

"Will you be okay? Are you sure you do not want me to drive with you?" Chidzima asked as he wiped away her remaining tears.

She nodded reaching out for the tissue I was handing over to her then she blew her nose and smiled like she wasn't the one who was crying at all.

We drove to the La Mocha suburbs as we wanted to view a few houses from there; it is like the Beverly Hills and Sandton of South Africa.

We got off and walked to a park since the guys had not arrived, I wanted to get to the bottom of why my friend cried earlier.

"Start talking, I cannot have you behaving that way again" I said as I looked at her seriously.

"I'm pregnant and I have been having this dreams of spiritual warfare, they want to kill my baby and I wake up tired from fighting every day" she said as she started to sob.

"Oh my goodness babe, so it's your baby that I have been seeing in my dreams all this while? Why didn't you tell me about this sooner?" I asked as I hugged her once more.

"Musuku I am tired, these people will not leave my baby alone, I haven't even told Chidzima about the pregnancy and already I am bothered by the thoughts that I might be losing my baby before even holding her" she said as she wiped her tears.

I saw the fear in her eyes and I felt sorry for her "My little Munangwa, when will you ever understand the power in you though? I guess I will have to mother you till the rapture comes, come now close your eyes let us get rid of this bad dreams clearly you are not ready to be seeing things as yet" I told her.

I prayed for her and intervened for her dreams and revelations to be passed on to me so that I may stand in the gap to fight the battles for her.

Just as I said amen, the guys arrived and we went house viewing, the first house we went into was a double story, the walls were painted in white and there was a lot of glass going on, the rooms were very spacious and the decor was to die for, it felt like my mini heaven on earth.

What I loved was the driveway, the spacious yard, the garden landscaping and of course the glass swimming pool, it had a garage that could fit 6 cars, a cottage outside and the colors that complemented the white walls were warm and earthly.

There was a walk in wardrobe which could make two more other rooms out of it and that just excited me more.

We viewed two more houses one was much of a glass house and it was 15 minutes away from the previous house and the last one was a triple story with everything anyone could ever want in a house.

We decided to buy the first house we viewed and Munangwa and Chidzima went for the glass house, the location was absolutely fabulous as it was a 30 minutes drive to the shopping malls and all the fun stuff, it was located in a hill and the view of the rest of the city was just splendid.

We drove back home after signing the ownership documents and then made a transfer of R 8 million, that was how much our house cost.

Munangwa and Chidzima transferred R 3.5 million for their house and everything was sorted, what remained would be the buying of furniture and incorporating our own personal touch to the look of our houses.

After the house shopping Munangwa and I were over the moon thinking of how shopping would be so much fun whenever we went out, I had a godchild coming  and a new house to fill with new things, how exciting.

We got home and just as I was about to say my goodbyes a call came through Masala's phone and he answered it, it was Masala's cousin Tendani and he was telling Masala that he just came from hospital with his wife and finally she is pregnant.

I could hear the excitement over the phone and I could see how Masala was also happy for them, then he said "so does this mean I have been relieved of my obligations?" the answer was yes man, you can go ahead and marry whoever  you want to, you can even do it tomorrow if it pleases you.

I looked at Masala and I saw there were tears in his eyes, I asked him what was wrong and he told me they were tears of joy because he has been relieved of the family obligation he always worried would come between us.

"What family obligation is that baby? You never told me anything about that" I asked him.

All of a sudden he was uncomfortable talking to me and it seemed like he was eager to go home "uhm nothing you should worry about babe, I never told you because I feared you might leave me, anyway it's all over now and I can be happy with you, nothing can ever come between us" he said as he squashed me in a hug.

I hugged him back and still wondered what this obligation of a secret could be, whatever it was; it gave me no peace at all.

"I know you are saying I should not worry but I would really like if we did not keep secrets away from each other, what is this obligation?" I asked holding his hand.

"well just promise me you are not going to freak out when I tell you because it is kind of huge you know and again promise you will not be angry at me or call things off cos if you do I will die" he said to me with a stern look on his face.

"well get talking already, I am all ears" I said as I felt my heart gain weight in my chest, to be honest I was afraid of what I would hear and I was not comfortable with the setting of not being able to react to it if it would be too much for me to handle.

"since the day I started living with my aunt, I had an obligation to make kids for my cousin with his wife because they believed he is not able to make them on his own as they once sacrificed with his seeds when he was still a baby, my aunt is a witch and to upgrade her powers she kept sacrificing with her son's body parts, first her three daughters died after she sacrificed their whole bodies eventually and that left the remaining son Tendani" he explained.

"Okay so then his wife is pregnant now, I believe that is what I overheard on the call, OMG is she carrying your child? Masala did you cheat on me?" I asked feeling light headed and ready to run out of his car..............

Cliff hanger??? 

The betrayal Chapter 19

What the hell?

Chapter 19

Upon arrival back in the city, Musuku called Masala and they met up in the mercury mall, they were so happy to see each other and they couldn't contain themselves.

They were hugging like a couple that is used to each other and has been dating for long.

"Feels like I have not seen you in forever" Musuku said to Masala.

"I know babe I miss you just as much, I hardly slept because I could not wait to be with you today, and now you are finally in my arms" Masala said as he looked deep into her eyes.

She shied away and but held on to his hand and started walking towards Joy-land.

The couple had fun playing all kinds of games which Masala deliberately let Musuku win except for one, he threw the basket balls into the hoop one after the other until he won 3000 tickets.

He redeemed the tickets for a big brown teddy bear , it was the most adorable thing ever.

They had dinner and he drove her home, when they got to the front of her porch they hugged goodnight and he left.

Masala's POV

The moment I got home I found my aunt waiting for me outside the gate and she looked angry as hell, she was walking up and down the steep and talking to herself.

As soon as i got closer to her she opened the door and pulled me out of the car "what the hell are you doing?

Do you not realise how this excuse of a relationship is going to cost my son?

You need to accomplish the mission you promised before you can even settle down, no one must know about this" she hissed at me.

"I am no longer interested in any accomplishments, I do not owe you anything, if anything, you and your son are the ones that owe me  a hell lot, you have used up my parents funds for your own selfish ambitions and we are about to go broke" I answered back feeling angry all of a sudden.

"You cannot do this, I will not allow you, if I have to I will kill that new girl and that way you will have no reason to feel so high and mighty.

You will not break off the agreement" she said with her eyes on fire for evil, I got a chill down my spine, because I knew she meant it, she was going to kill the girl of my dreams.

I walked past her and asked the security guy to park my car in as I tossed my keys over to him and walked into the house.

"it is time I left this house and found a place of my own and moved out of this house, I will leave them with all these riches, sell my 4cars, leave my beach house for renting and also rent out all our ships and boats in the coast, I will use the money to establish my own business and leave the family company behind, I cannot deal with all this anymore" I thought to myself.

When I entered my bedroom, walking out was Lufuno, my cousin Tendani's wife, she had nothing but a towel on and as soon as she saw me, she threw herself on my bed pulled up the towel to give me a better view of her thighs.

"What on earth do you think you are doing in my room, why must you use my shower and enter my room as you please in my absence? Didn't your husband teach you any manners?" I shouted at her in frustration.

Ever since she married into the family two years ago, she has always tried to seduce me and get into my bed and I have had to resist and reject her time and again, I was getting tired of this constant behavior.

"You know you want me, when last did you touch me? Masala please I need you to make me feel like a woman, your cousin is less of a man than you could ever be, I do not love him anymore, I want you please" she pleaded.

"Get out of my room and don't ever mention about me touching you because I have never touched you, I loved you once and you blew it because of money so leave okay and don't ever enter my room in my absence, even in my presence I don't ever want to see you again" I told her and I opened the door to show her out.

She started to whimper as she touched my face instead of leaving, she kissed my neck and pressed her body against mine "please just this once" she whispered in my ears as her tears dropped on my chest.

"I cant, just go okay, you are my cousins wife now so respect that and let me be, besides, I have found my soul mate, the one that I love and would like to spend the rest of my life with, I can't begin this marriage this way" I told her as I looked into her sad pleading eyes.

I felt the old feelings I once had for her linger somewhere within my heart, I clenched my fists as my hands threatened to touch her, I wanted to take her there and then but I fought the urge and looked away.

She stood tippy toed and kissed me, I just stood still not sure what to do, I wanted to push her off me but I just couldn't, I held on to her and I kissed her back, I allowed all my passions to shower her lips and just when this were about to escalate, I stopped and pushed her off me, we were then on my bed and her towel was off.

I looked at her with disgust and closed my eyes holding my head with both hands "what have I just done? I've betrayed her even before we started, GET OUT" I shouted at her feeling angry from what just happened.

To be honest I did not know if I was angry at her or myself for being so weak and easily influenced, why doesn't she just leave me alone? I really need to get out of here, I am getting tired of this, every night I must be fighting her out of my room, I can't have this anymore.

She ran out of my room and I wiped my lips from the back of my hand and made sure my room was locked in case she would sneak back in at night.

I decided to call Musuku and to be honest I wasn't sure if my need to make the call was sincere of just the guilt killing me, what was I going to say to her and would I tell her what just happened? I do not want to lie to her.

After three rings she picked up and she sounded a bit off "hello babe, what are you up to?"

"Nothing much, I'm just trying to deal with the revelation I just received right now and I am wondering just how you intend to make this work" she replied.

"Uhm babe I'm confused, what are you talking about?" I retorted.

"I mean the deception that is beginning in such an early age of this newly found relationship; it seems you are not being totally honest with me and that is not settling very well within me" she said.

"Wait babe, what are you going on about, what am I not being honest about and where do you get such crazy ideas about me?" I asked still acting dumb.

My mind was so busy trying to figure out how she could know about what happened tonight and if she was actually referring to the incident with Lufuno, my heart skipped two beats at the horrors of what would happen if she was talking about what I just thought.

"I just received a revelation that you are hiding something from me and it seems like you will be deceiving me a whole lot more from what I saw but what I hate is that nothing is clear and I have to depend on your explanations to be out in the open and to understand what is going on" she explained.

"To make matters worse I even prayed about it and nothing further was revealed, I am told this is a portion of my own desires and therefore I must exercise my own godly powers on earth and make my own choices and decisions" she ranted sounding mighty frustrated.

"Babe relax, you are not making any sense right now, you are probably making a mountain out of a molehill, maybe you are just so scared of loosing me that its making you paranoid and you are starting to create theories and mistaking them to be revelations" I tried to convince her with the hope that she buys into my story.

"No I have never made such mistakes my whole life; I know a revelation when I see it because it comes in a certain form which I am not willing explain right now" she said.

"In fact you know what? I think I need time to just be in my own space because right now my mind is not functioning the way it should, I am not even sure about my gifts anymore, maybe this relationship is just too bad for me, just give me some space and I will call you back as soon as I have my feelings sorted" She said then hung up.

"Hello, babe wait please, hello, hell............."

My goodness what is all this? Just like that she is asking for space, what is happening though? Could she really have gotten a revelation of the mistake? I can't lose her like this; I would just be a failure like my father and I cannot afford that at all.

At that I switched off the lights and prayed for forgiveness from God for misleading the poor girl, it does not make sense why I would try and kill her gift by making her doubt it.

I tried calling her one last time but failed to get through; it was as though each time I called she was simply pressing the reject button, frustration took me over and I wept below my blankets "Lord I am sorry, if you can give me one last chance to make things right, I will treat her like a queen, please bring her back to me, I need my wife" I wept in the darkness before there was a knock on the door.

I was astonished as to who would knock at that time of the hour, when I looked at the time it was 11pm, I quickly got out of bed and went to the bathroom to clean my face before I went to go open the door.

WHAT THE HELL?...................................

The Betrayal Chapter 18

Getting to know the hubby.

The girls got home around midnight and were welcomed by a very moody Newi, she was sitting by the gate in the cold without a jersey on and she had a very huge pout on her lips.

They got in and she ran towards Musuku and hugged her leg, after she was satisfied with the hug she started to hit Munangwas legs with her little fists, tears soon started rolling down her cheeks as the girls both just looked at her, they did not try to stop her or hold her back, they just let her release all her anger on Munangwa's thighs.

"I hate you, ever since you came I knew you would want to take my big sister from me, you left me alone in this place where I don't even know anyone, I was bored" she cried out.

Munangwa knelt down to her level and opened her arms to engulf her in a hug; she hugged her back and brushed her back then kissed her temples.

"listen baby, you do not hate me, you are just a little upset right now, I love you okay, you are my little sister too and I regard you our little beautiful princess, sorry we left you behind" Munangwa said as she took out an Easter egg from her purse and gave it to Newi.

Newi took the chocolate coated marsh mellow and hopped away into Musukus room to go indulge away from every body's sight.

As they walked into their yard, they found both their parents awake and it looked as though they were pissed and ready to skin them alive.

Munangwa noticed and she held Musuku's hand, "please do the talking because I am afraid right now, your mom looks mighty pissed, I have never seen her like this" she whispered into Musuku's ear.

"it's okay I will take this one but remember there is still Chidzima for you to deal with, from where I am standing I do not think he looks too pleased and I think you going to have a lot of begging to do" Musuku whispered back.

"hello my two most beautiful mothers in the whole wide world, why are you still not asleep? Do you not know that sleep is the biggest beauty trick in the book, especially for two oldies like yourselves, come on, go to bed" she then yawned as walked over and kissed both of them goodnight.

The two just remained looking at each other shocked at how the girls were not apologising for coming home late and how they were acting like it's totally normal.

"They grow up too fast, I guess they are old enough to be living life their own way now, as long as they coming back home in one piece" Sarah said.

The two ladies went to bed accepting defeat; it's amazing how they were fuming over the past four hours because they were supposed to have left back to the city, and now they stand silenced by their own daughters.

Munangwas POV

I walked over to the room that had been prepared for both Chidzima and I, he looked pissed and to make it worse I had left my phone and he couldn't reach me throughout the night, I can't begin to imagine what must be going through his mind.

I prepared myself mentally to totally smooth talk my way out of this trouble, and from the way it looked, it seemed I would be doing more than just smooth talking.

"Hello babe, oh come here I missed you too much for the little time that I have been away, kiss me" she said pulling him to herself.

She knew the kind of effect her kisses had on him and how that would be the easiest way out of having to explain herself which could lead to an argument.

She kissed him so passionately that he ended up not even saying a word and instead they got lost in their mid night passions, tongues wrestling, hands all over each other's bodies, heavy breaths and soft moans.

Just when things were about to get real, she stopped him and looked him straight in the eyes and told him she loved him, at that he responded by pulling her back into his arms, the urge was written all over his face and it was clear that he wasn't going to back down without getting what his body now ached for.

"I want you, I want you right now and I know you are going to deny me because all of this was just your way of getting out of trouble, but guess what?

There is only one way out and if you deny me, you would still have to face my anger concerning what you and your buddy did tonight" he whispered into her ears while he kissed her neck.

I could feel myself getting lost in the lusts of my flesh that were now being caused by the chills created from the touch of his lips on my neck and his hot breath.

"I am not going to deny you anything, I can see the desire in your eyes and it would be impossible to sleep if I denied you this so have me" she whispered back in moans.

That night they made love (not going to get into the details because I wasn't there when they did their business, so didn't see hahaha) and when they finished; they were too tired to even talk so they fell asleep in each other's arms.

Musuku's POV

As I laid in bed that night, I remembered my prince charming Masala, it was at that moment that I realised I wished I was still with, I would like to just get to know him.

I think he makes me happy, I have never loved a guy my whole life and now here I am so attached to a guy I hardly know, my goodness I am even getting married to him and yet I had the nerve to question Munangwa when she agreed to marry Chidzima.

Oh God I am so in love with this guy, I already feel like he is my everything and yet I do not even know him that well, what am I going to do, I have not even told mom about the engagement, I wonder what she is going to think of all of this.

As I was busy with my thoughts, a call came through and when I looked it was Masala, I started to panic, I dint know if I wanted to talk to him, am I crazy?

Hell I do want to talk to him, upon deciding, I snatched my phone as if someone would take it from me and quickly pressed the answer button.

"Hello" I hope that didn't sound too desperate, oh gosh my heart is beating too fast.

"Hello angel, you sound a bit out of breath there, are you nervous to speak to your soon to be husband?" he asked.

"I'm sorry I am just taking a little more time to get used to all of this, I am happy to hear from you and I'm trying hard to control myself as I normally do in every other aspect of my life but its proving rather different in this matters of the heart" I told him in honesty not knowing any other way of handling this.

He chuckled at the other side of the line "being usual and allowing everything to just be as it is normally helps, control doesn't apply in love issues hun, you just let yourself go, do not think too much of anything, don't try to be anything different from what you are and you will see how easy it becomes okay" he explained sounding like a pro.

It made better sense when he said it, not to say I didn't know but it wouldn't make sense to try and behave like someone I am not, to suppress my feelings and try and act differently from how I felt because I have always been one who is free to express the way I feel in anyway I felt like doing so.

"Okay love I hear you" oh my God, wait no! Did I just call him "love"? What the hell is wrong with me, I do not do this, oh my goodness I wanna hide.

"Please call me that again, I think I love how it sounds coming from your lips, I wish you could look me in the eyes and cal me that, that would be the best day ever" he responded.

"Uhm" was all I managed to say back to him, wait what "uhm" really? What does that even mean? I must totally be sounding retarded right now.

"Musuku listen to me babe, it just me, I'm just a guy, someone you love and will be spending the rest of your life with, you don't have to feel awkward with me, please be the most free with me, baby you have to remember I fell in love with who you are, the way you talk, how you reason, the things you say, all of you my angel, you can never look or sound wrong to me so please be free" He said as it calmed me down.

"okay hubby, I am not used to all this, I need to get used to it, I really just feel awkward and I think it's because I am trying to sound perfect and I fear I might say something stupid but what I am realising is that the more I try not to sound stupid is the more I sound stupid" I explained feeling embarrassed.

"It's okay babe, you don't sound stupid, I think its adorable that you wanna sound perfect for me, I'm feeling mighty special right now" he said and I could hear the smirk in his voice.

Eventually I felt the tension wear out and I laughed thinking I have a silly man, I felt like saying it, telling him that I love him cos I feared I would never gather the courage to do it someday, I've always had issues with saying the three words when I thought of saying them to a guy, it made me feel weak, it was like I am giving them the go ahead to have an effect on me and my emotions, so at that I reconsidered.

" I think I am getting sleepy now, I have fried my brain thinking of the perfect things to say to you so all my energy has worn out, from just trying to impress you, I think this relationship stuff is a lot of work" I jokingly but truthfully said.

"okay rest your pretty head my wife to be, I will see you later today, dream about me and think of the things you wanna do tomorrow because I will be taking you out  to wherever you want to go to, anywhere, just name it okay?" he said.

"Okay goodnight then, do not forget to pray before you sleep, I love you hubby" I uttered unaware as my eyes were closing on me.

"Night baby, I love you more" he said and then sang me a song, all I remember was how amazing his voice sounded as I dosed further into sleep

another chapter down yeay!!!

The Betrayal Chapter 17

Really? you will marry me?

Masala's POV

As I sat with the love of my life, I remembered back to the past two weeks when I was contemplating the day when I would get to see her and tell her the truths in my heart.

Knowing that I no longer have parents and I only have my aunt who does not see eye to eye with me and the kind of things that I believe in, just made me wonder if I did the right thing by pursuing my love for this angel before me.

I am worried about what I might be bringing this innocent soul into, my evil family that has no regard for anyone, I hope they do not interfere in my life any more; I am not interested in what they say I owe to the family, I am not willing to give up my own happiness for the families pacts where my feelings were not even considered.

I look into her beautiful eyes and only wish I could change my world to suit her, her happiness and her well being, if there is one thing I cannot guarantee it's her eternal happiness when my family gets to know my decision concerning her.

I felt my heart sink at the thought of the possibility of having to watch her suffer because of my family and how I might have to disappoint and hurt her, I reconsidered the question I had just asked her and wished I could take it back to rethink this and be sure that no harm would reach her.

I snapped out of my thoughts "you don't have to answer me now, you can take your time to think about this, I know all of this is too much for you to take and digest in one day, you can keep the ring though and the next time I see you if you have accepted my proposal please wear it when you come to see me" I told her, not sure whether I was doing the right thing.

My heart wanted this so badly because I knew she deserves the love I owe her and I also wouldn't want to die not knowing what it could have been like to love and be loved by her.

I reached out and held her hands and kissed them, she never said anything to me, and she just looked at me like I was crazy for doing all this things to her.

I could not read her emotions and I was trying hard to hide mine so she doesn't see through my confusion and vulnerability, my desperation for her to at least assure me that she is willing to love me back.

"I really do not know what you expect of me at this point in time but everything you have said, done and asked of me is just too much for me to process, what could you possibly want from a person like me?" why would you want anything from me, let alone a wife in me?" she asked me all this questions with so much honesty in her eyes.

I was shocked, what did she mean by a person like her? Couldn't she see that she is every guys dream girl? In fact she is too perfect for any living being on this earth, couldn't she see that she is too good for even me? Nobody deserves this amazing angel who is perfect in every single way.

She is beautiful inside out, she is stubborn for righteousness, she is genuine in her talks, her dimples when she smiles, her sparkling brown eyes, her black long hair, she is everything any man can ever dream of, who wouldn't want a wife like her and to top it all the humility in seeing herself as nothing while she is in fact everything one could ever wish for.

"My angel listen to me, you are everything perfect and beyond, never doubt that okay? I call you an angel because that is the only thing I can think of that is close to perfection, but if you ask me that still is an understatement because there is nothing to be compared to what you mean to me" I told her in utmost honesty from the depth of my heart.

She looked at me and smiled "no one has ever referred to me as anything closer to an angel, I myself see an average girl who is a nobody for God when I look at myself, and here you are singing high praises over me, a nobody? If these are not plain meaningless words and you mean them from the depth of your spirit where all truth lies, then I will marry you, I will be your wife because all you have proved to be is exactly what I have prayed for in a man from GOD" she answered.

I was shocked, how can such words come from the lips of a living being so precious, at the same time I was confused why she would accept a proposal from a meaningless, shameless being like me, I do not deserve her even though I am destined for her, I am not close to anybody or anything that deserves her.

"Really? You will marry me? Why though? You do not even know me and you are too good for me"

"you are going to have to do one thing for me though, tell me what GOD means to you, who He is in your life, the only man worth my love is the man who will find my heart that is hidden in GOD" she said with a smile on her face and her pretty dimples showing.

Can anyone be anymore perfect? This girl doesn't deserve to be living in this world, she is unworthy of it.

"Okay I will tell you what you want to know, GOD is my Father, since the day I was born when I ceased to understand anything because my infancy denied me, I was guided by His Holy Spirit, my parents died when I was 12 and nobody within the family wanted me, until it was announced that my parents left me a fortune, that was when my aunt agreed to nurture me in place of my parents."

" It was hard as she has a son of her own, she treated me badly, I feel alone most of the time and the only best friend and true father I have ever known is GOD, He guides, leads, protects and makes me the person I am today, Had it not been for God, I do not know what would have become of me."

She stood up with her eyes tears filled and gave me a hug, she held on to me as though her life depended on it, she kissed my forehead as uttered the words "I am here now, I will be your everything, you do not need to feel alone any longer for I will always be by your side, I will be your friend, your mother and your support, I might not be rich but I can offer you love, you have found me now and you can rest assured that you will be well kept in my love".

I hugged her back and inhaled her scent as I closed my eyes to try and keep the tears from falling out of my eyes, I felt and unexplainable warmth and tingles all over my body, it was as if this hug made up for all the mothers love I had ever lacked since I was 12, all the times that I ever needed a mother and never had one besides me, this hug made up for the loss and lacks of the past.

I sobbed very loud as I discovered a part of me that yearned for love and care, I cried with no limitation and without holding back because I wanted all the pain to leave my system.

I wanted to be free from all the burdens from the pains of the past, she didn't judge me, she just held me and allowed me to cry it all out and eventually when I stopped sobbing she handed me the ring and asked me to place it in her finger and I did exactly that, I leaned in for a kiss and she looked away, instead of my lips landing on hers, they landed on her cheek.

We prayed and started to indulge in the different treats that I had brought for our picnics, she told me she would be going back to the city the next morning and we agreed to meet as soon as we got there.

We then got up to go fetch the friend who we found dancing to a Zumba tape, we hid behind a tree to watch the killer moves and we where cracked in laughter, she was so serious doing it wrong and sweating, by the time she realised we were watching her, she almost fainted from embarrassment.

"And just what on earth do you two think you are spying on? You have no shame laughing at me, I got bored okay, and you guys took forever to finish with whatever things you needed to say to each other, whooo brother your car is off the chains man geez, how much did this cost? I had the time of my life here but it's so late you guys and they must be worried sick looking for us at home" She bubbled away.

"Okay we need to go now, bye Masala, it was nice meeting you and drive safe okay, will be waiting for tomorrow to arrive sooner" Musuku said as she waved pulling her best friend with her other hand.

I started my car and drove away to the lodge where I had booked in just to come here and declare my love to the woman of my dreams, I played some old love jams on my way with my window open and my voice very loud, I couldn't begin to express the excitement in me, she is finally mine and she knows about it.