The Betrayal : Chapter 8

WELCOME SON IN-LAW

Chidzimas POV

I  sat there and poured out my heart to her as I watched her sleep, she was beautiful and I couldn't believe she was mine, I still felt as though she was too good for me and she deserved better than me.

I looked at her lips and the urge to kiss her was torturing me, as I leaned in to steal a kiss, I heard her mom walk in and I quickly jumped to the other couch afraid of how she might react if she found me in cuddles with her daughter.

Sarah walked in and asked me if I am going to sleep over, I was taken aback by this as I never thought she would offer me that option, I simply told her if it is okay with her I would gladly love to sleep over. 

Munangwa suddenly opened her eyes and  she was glowing with excitement from the proposal and I could tell she was burning to tell her mom, she looked at me and I nodded, she jumped up from the couch and showed her mother the ring I had placed in her finger earlier, she was already squealing before her mother said anything.

Soon I heard Sarah say: oh my! Baby that ring is absolutely beautiful and it looks like it must have cost a fortune, where did u get it? Nangwa replied and said, Chidzima asked me to marry him and I said yes.

I felt Sarah look at me with questioning eyes and I smiled nervously and nodded, Sarah squealed and hugged her daughter, the next thing I heard was congratulations baby, I am so happy for you.

I was still caught up in my thoughts trying to digest how Sarah never questioned my intentions when I felt a choking squeeze and a kiss on the cheek, "welcome to our family son in law, congratulations and you better take good care of my daughter".

I smiled and hugged her back, then told her she could trust me to treat her like a queen that she is to me.

Munangwa went to her room to call her best friend just to check if she got home safe and to say goodnight like she usually does before she doses off, she took out a book from her side drawer from which she only read two pages and fell asleep.

That night Musuku was praying in her room giving back the glory to God who made everything that happened that day possible, she was grateful for being chosen to be the vessel God uses to showcase His power and for having saved her friend and her destined partner.

She then was placed in the spiritual realm where she was told she would be used further but what she needs to know is that she will not share in the same privileges as others as far as her gift is concerned, that she must understand that its meant Io save and serve others more than it is meant to help her.

She was so confused at this that she asked a clearer explanation but none came.

The last message was that she would be undergoing a very difficult time and she would need to be strong and have faith in God. She zoned back into her normal self and concluded her prayer then slept.

Around 2am in the morning she had a dream and in her dream she saw a face of a woman who was smiling at her and holding out her hand for her to reach, there was a lot of doubt within her as to whether she should hold the hand or not and she just felt a struggle within her, behind the woman she saw a guy in tears and he wouldn't look at her, she was more interested in the guy than the lady before her.

She looked beyond the woman and reached her hand out to the guy, when he lifted his face up, she saw he looked evil and he was laughing at her saying he fooled her, she then reached out her hand  and pulled off the ugly musk to see a beautiful innocent face beneath it, she smiled at the beautiful face and reached out to kiss it, before her lips could touch his, the woman behind pulled her hair and her eyes turned red, she was so furious and her nails had grown long and ugly, there was a struggle between her and the woman and she woke up panting.

She looked at the time and it was 3am, she was sweating and her heart was pounding inside her chest, she then prophesied "no weapon formed against me shall prosper, I am an anointed of God and thus no evil shall touch me because my father in heaven will fight for me, I fear not the valley of the shadow of death, I  have so much power within me and I am created to defeat evil".

So Sarah has a son in law now and Munangwa is engaged to a guy she only knew for a day? 

Chances



Baby steps I took into the light you shone on me

An unfamiliar voice I heard calling me to accept freedom

No doubt within me dared to arise against the call to liberation

With both hand and a willing head I nodded to the call and accepted 

I found a kind of freedom that could never be bought, justified or afforded if sold for cash

Different levels I went through from soft porridge to nurse the intestines on an infant to solid meat

A new strength I found within me that then released a deeper power unknown to my ignorant self

A soothing hand found me and gave me guidance into the mysteries of the greatest kingdom

My mind exposed to free greatness, from salvation, to righteousness to faith to riches

At first it made no sense because it was too big for my childish mind to understand

Until one night when love found me in my sleep and showed me a different kind of path that now made sense

I followed this path with diligence and faithfulness but somewhere along the way I lost the guiding hand.

Everything suddenly became heavy, so many distractions and curiosities blurred the vision to the final destination of the God given will.

Endurance became the way of life as my mind reminded me the Name of the owner of the hand that held me for guidance.

I called and got the answer I sought, again, I had a guiding hand on mine showing me the way out of the troubles I had landed myself in.

Distractions of the world I sought to conquer with my own strength for nobody told me the battle was the Lord’s to fight

I struggled night and day trying to conquer things that made no sense to me, things meant for a higher power to waltz over

Mercies of the Holy spirit found me and showed revealed the knowledge of spiritual battles that are for the Lord to fight and the victory for me to claim

A different attack for a different level of growth came forth, whilst waiting for the Lord to fight this battle on my behalf, another stronghold caught up with me and I was down once more.

As I thought it was over, a light tap on my shoulder awakened me once more in the darkest of the night, my guiding hand was back again to show me the way.

A process that goes on and on, chances that came after chances, a stronger faith built and a higher order of understanding established within me to conquer the distractions on the way of my destiny’s.

JESUS CHRIST HAS NEVER GIVEN UP ON ME, He has picked me time and again for his love is beyond our shortfalls and what we regards as failures is just a learning curve for us to trust Him to handle the hardships of our lives. He will never Give up on us  because He is a God of another chance that follows another and another and another.

God's Love

When sorrow greets me,
upon the break of day
I know God’s love . . .
will take the pain away.

For His loving-kindness,
when I am heartbroken
is filled with the promise
I’ll not be left forsaken.

When I’m discouraged,
before depression sets in
I think about God’s love
living steadfast within.

For His kind-heartedness,
is my souls retreat . . .
where my faith and trust
is made in Him, complete.

When my head I lay down,
at the end of the day . . .
I sing praises to my Lord
for the love He sent my way!

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Psalm 42:8

“By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me
– a prayer to the God of my life.”

King James Version
by Public Domain

Tears shed for God

 Tears are precious in the sight of God when they are tears of longing, shed in intercession, or tears of joy as you praise God for answered prayer. The Son of God knows what it means to weep in prayer. The shortest verse in the Bible, "Jesus wept" (John 11:35), not only speaks volumes about the love and compassion of Jesus; it also explains the relation of tears to the intercession of Jesus. 

He who weepswith us wept for us as He wrestled with the powers of darkness in the Garden (Heb. 5:7). Let us make very clear that we are not talking about tears of self-pity. Such tears can be basically carnal. They may give relief from tension, for "a good cry" often helps the mood of a discouraged or depressed person. But recurring tears of self-pity give no testimony to spiritual depth or power. We are here discussing the power of tears resulting from deep spiritual desire.

    

You should never be ashamed of tears shed in loving intercession. In fact, they testify to God of the depth of your identity with those for whom you intercede, the intensity of longing which underlies your intercession, and serve as a testimony of the Holy Spirit praying through you. Tears add a personal and private dimension of poignancy and power.

Such weeping intercession is much more likely to occur when you are alone with God. Normally, our private prayer can be more deep and intense than our public prayer. Tears are so intensely personal that the praying soul can weep more naturally and freely when only God is the witness to the tears. It is possible, however, to have a weeping spirit even when no literal tear runs down your cheek. God looks on your heart above all else (1 Sam. 16:7).

 Your tears, like your words, are very important. However, God sees and knows you as you really are (2 Sam. 7:20; John 21:17). God knows the secret depths of your longing even better than you can express it. By deeply identifying with those for whom you pray, seek to deepen your heartcry to God. But do not seek to produce outward tears. That would be hypocritical. Welcome the tears when the Holy Spirit gives them, but seek only to feel in your innermost heart the depth of yearning which the Spirit feels.

A beautiful graced soul

A  tiny bundle of joy she once was to her parents
A confused soul she grew up to be as the world rejected her
A newly found found comfort she received from a source she never understood
different labels she got from those  she lived around, weirdo, freak, unusual
evil forces ganged up on her to try and kill her and yet an undefined power saved her
great wisdom instilled when liberation found her, the world made different sense to her
visions and dreams she would see of things still yet to come, once more another level of weirdness
A loner she was around people, a best friend she had on her own, a mystery no one could resolve
A higher level of wisdom and knowledge received from above she received
A journey led by angels she traveled as she uncovered the secrets of a greater kingdom
Her tiny  self she tried to lift and put forth for people to understand and hear out
disappointment after disappointment she experienced as she tried to accommodate people into her life
little did she know that she is not for the world to understand, she was of a higher order
A princess ordained for a heavenly kingdom to serve in utmost self sacrifice
A blessing she was as she contributed positively in others lives, she loved, cared and helped
God's grace kept her from level to level and a young kept noble lady she grew up to be
Kind, humble and blessed, no amount of words can begin to express her gratitude towards God.
Trust Him to be your savior, you will see the wonders He will work in your life.

The practical hidden lesson of utmost dependence on God

As Christians we are to depend on God for all that we need and until we understand to what level and length, we tend to not realise when God is teaching us how to fully depend on Him.

All we realise are the hardships of our daily lives, how painful and miserable life can be how it feels like God has abandoned us because we are going through so much in this cruel world.

Question posed is, if we did not go through these tough times and hardships, how then would we depend on God, where would we get the opportunities to call upon Him for dependence?

Why would we need to depend on anyone if we did not have any reasons to feel weary and weak? If we never lacked the strength to keep going why would it have to be provided?

If we never lacked the heart to be strong and everything was always smooth, why would we need provision for the support from the creator?

And when we do actually go through these hardships and then move our dependence for support and provision from God to people, why will He not give us bigger challenges that men cannot resolve?

When would we get time to look unto him and seek him with all of our hearts unless we are put in situations that leave us with no choice but to look up to Him and seek Refuge and strength.

If problems too big for us, the world and our friends are not given to us where our only option left is to look upon the creator of all things who possesses all solutions to all problems of the world when would we get the chance to do that?

When would God get the deserved dependence upon Him from His people? As the glory of young men is in their strength and ability to provide for their household, God’s glory is His ability to provide for His children as they depend upon Him.

A married man would hate to see his wife and children depend on somebody else for their supply of anything that he himself is able to provide for them, same goes with God.

Isaiah 40:31 those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

The strength of men is not everlasting, but that of GOD IS, If you spared men the efforts to be your strength, God would fill you with His own strength that does not run out, you would mount up with wings like eagles.

As the eagle who is the king of birds soars the highest into the heavens, believers are to live a heavenly life, in the very presence, joy and love of GOD, they are to live where God lives and they need HIS strength to rise there.

Eagle wings are given only by eagle birth, as you are born Of GOD, you have eagle wings, you may not  have known it, may not have used them but when you depend on God, you create an atmosphere for Him to teach you how to use your God given wings.

For an eaglet to be taught to use its wings, it is pushed off from its precipice which is a thousand feet high by its mother, as it flutters and falls and sinks towards the depth, the mother hovers above the young one spreading her wings to carry it back to its place of safety, she does this over and over again until the eaglets eventually masters to use its own wings.

The same way with God, He stirs up your nest, disappoints your hopes and brings down your confidence, makes you fear and tremble as all your own strength fails and you feel utterly weary and helpless, and all the while He is spreading His wings waiting for you to rest your weakness on Him and offering His everlasting creator strength to work in you.

This is the lesson we all fail to see God teaching us, over and over again we go through difficult times, disappointments and hurt, all we see from it is the devil at work and we continue to try and depend on ourselves and ask God to help us, yes we seek the help from Him but what we miss is the lesson of utmost dependence on Him.

If we do not go through the difficult times, we will never master the skill of utmost dependence on God, this lesson will never sink in to the depth of the last level which GOD expects our dependence on Him to reach. “Excellence in dependence on God” is the lesson some hardships are meant to teach us.

God has your best interests at heart

People care more about themselves


as people we tend to rely on mere beings for things beyond their love
we wrong people and expect their forgiveness forgetting they lack the heart to overlook things
we are expected to beg on our knees before we are forgiven
we ask for help and its given with motives
you hurt someone you pay for it for so long before you can be forgiven
you treat situations the best way it seems to you and you are judged for it
you ask and you are denied or given with certain conditions
you can never just have it easy like it is with God.
your expectations are not important and never considered
ignore their expectations and you will only limp to tomorrow
harsh words like knives trough your heart you will receive from them
give back the same harsh words and you are crucified forever
what matters to you is never a priority but you must respect what matters to them
promises are always broken and disappointments is all you are familiar with
you depend on people to make you happy and have fun in life forgetting
that no human will ever hand you a silver platter instead they expect one
you run to people for help forgetting they have their own lives to live
a little consideration you hope for but you never see because you do not matter that much
you will only receive if it suits them and if you are in the right standing according to their own benefits
their love is dependent on  the situation currently, if you are in a bad space with them forget about it
with God you can sin and hurt Him  a million time over and over again and He always forgives without reason. right after you you sin and you turn to God for helps, He offers the helping hand without conditions.
 he always cares and loves regardless of whatever faults he may find in you.
to Him you are perfect in your flaws and He just loves to love you.
He never takes delight in seeing you hurt, depend on Him and He will never disappoint you.
In His perfect embrace He will hold you and make you feel the perfect peace He wants you to have.
Depend on God for no matter the situation, state and circumstance, He never looks away or turns His back on you. His arms are always open wide, you can always depend on Him to do it all for you.