Addictions and the Manifestation of Demonic Influence

The drapes hung torn and sagging, like the weary souls lost in the darkness of addiction. Addiction is not just a physical or psychological battle—it is a spiritual warfare where demonic forces seek to destroy the very essence of who we are. Those suffering from addiction may feel trapped, like prisoners in their own skin, chained to their habits, but the Bible offers both warning and hope to those seeking freedom.

The Spiritual Battle Behind Addiction

In the dim glow of that desperate night, the hand of the enemy extended through the haze, offering another hit—another taste of death disguised as a temporary escape. Addiction often feels like an endless cycle, much like the experience described in the passage. The enemy whispers lies, telling us we are beyond saving, that we will never escape, and that God’s promises are not meant for us.

The Bible tells us that Satan is a deceiver and accuser. Revelation 12:10 calls him "the accuser of our brethren," one who accuses us day and night, planting seeds of guilt and shame to drive us deeper into despair. The condemnation that comes with addiction feels unbearable because it’s not just a natural consequence of our actions—it’s the enemy actively working to destroy our identity and relationship with God. As Jesus said in John 10:10, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.” Addiction, no matter what form it takes, is one of the tools the enemy uses to do just that.

The Gaps Between God’s Promises and Our Experience

There’s a striking gap between God’s promises and our lived experiences, particularly when battling addiction. God promises peace, victory, and transformation, yet in the midst of addiction, we often find ourselves filled with anxiety, defeat, and self-condemnation. This gap feels like a chasm that grows wider with every relapse or failure.

But God is not distant in these struggles. He wants to close these gaps and bring healing to every part of our brokenness. The Apostle Paul speaks to this in Romans 7:19-20, where he describes the internal war we all face: "For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing." This war is not unique to any one person; it is the battle every human heart faces when trying to live a godly life in a fallen world.

However, Paul goes on to offer hope in Romans 8:1: “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Even in the midst of addiction, God’s grace is available, and He does not hold our failures over us.

 The Manifestation of Demonic Influence

Addiction opens the door to demonic influence because it exploits our deepest weaknesses and fears. The moment of relapse, where shame floods in, is often the moment when demonic forces speak the loudest, echoing the voice of the tempter in the Garden of Eden, questioning God’s truth and goodness: “Did God really say…?”

Ephesians 6:12 reminds us that our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against "the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Demons seek to exploit addiction, reinforcing the lie that we are beyond redemption, that we are destined to fall repeatedly. Their influence thrives on hopelessness, isolation, and despair, leading those trapped in addiction to feel abandoned by God.

But these demonic lies are countered by the truth of God’s Word. In John 8:36, Jesus says, “If the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” True freedom from addiction does not come from self-effort but from surrendering to the One who has already won the victory on our behalf.

 The Power of God's Spirit in Breaking Addiction

The strength to overcome addiction is not found in willpower alone but in the power of the Holy Spirit. Ephesians 1:13-14 speaks of believers being "sealed with the promised Holy Spirit," a guarantee of our inheritance and the power to overcome sin. The Holy Spirit empowers us to fight not just the physical cravings but the spiritual battles tied to addiction.

The key is to stop believing the lie that victory depends on us alone. Galatians 5:16 urges us to "walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh." When we submit to God, we allow His Spirit to work in us, leading us away from the destructive patterns that have bound us. This submission doesn’t mean the battle will be easy or instant, but it means we are no longer fighting alone.

 Hope and Motivation for the Addicted Soul

For those feeling trapped in addiction, the promise of deliverance is real. God does not want His children to live in bondage. 2 Corinthians 5:17 assures us that “if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” Even after a relapse or moment of weakness, God’s grace is still available. We are not abandoned because of our failures; instead, God draws near to the brokenhearted and promises to deliver us (Psalm 34:18).

The journey to freedom from addiction may be long, but it is a path marked by God’s faithfulness. In the book of James, we are reminded to "submit to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you" (James 4:7). With each step of surrender, God fights for us, and the forces that once held us captive begin to lose their power.

Victory Through Christ

Addiction is not the final word. Though demonic influence seeks to enslave and destroy, God offers freedom, healing, and transformation through Christ. As Jesus declared in John 10:10, “I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” This abundant life is available to every believer, no matter how deep the addiction or how long the battle.

God has already won the war, and His victory can be our victory. By relying on His strength and not our own, we can break free from the chains of addiction and experience the fullness of life He has promised us. Trust in His power, walk in His Spirit, and remember: “If the Son sets you free, you are free indeed” (John 8:36).

Marriage is God Ordained

The first chapters of the Bible record how God created the heavens and the earth, including plants, animals and finally humans. He did not just create a man, Adam, but also “a helper fit for him." God made a woman from the man’s rib, and brought her to Adam to be his wife. Adam and Eve were not just created as two separate individuals, but as the first human couple.

Marriage, thus, is not just a social institution that developed over time in various cultures. On the contrary, it has been ordained by God, right from the beginning. This makes marriage universal. It is not optional, but should be a cornerstone of every society (which does not mean that every individual should marry — more about that later). Marriage is good in God’s eyes.

The Bible also records many examples of marriages that did not meet God’s standards at all. You probably know such situations as well. Since humans have become sinful and imperfect, their marriages are damaged, too. This makes it all the more important to carefully listen to what God has to say about marriage and how He intended it to be. 

Dont argue with donkeys

The donkey said to the tiger:

- "The grass is blue".

The tiger replied:

- "No, the grass is green."

The discussion heated up, and the two decided to submit him to arbitration, and for this they went before the lion, the King of the Jungle.

Already before reaching the forest clearing, where the lion was sitting on his throne, the donkey began to shout:

- "His Highness, is it true that the grass is blue?".

The lion replied:

- "True, the grass is blue."

The donkey hurried and continued:

- "The tiger disagrees with me and contradicts and annoys me, please punish him."

The king then declared:

- "The tiger will be punished with 5 years of silence."

The donkey jumped cheerfully and went on his way, content and repeating:

- "The Grass Is Blue"...

The tiger accepted his punishment, but before he asked the lion:

- "Your Majesty, why have you punished me?, after all, the grass is green."

The lion replied:

- "In fact, the grass is green."

The tiger asked:

- "So why are you punishing me?".

The lion replied:

- "That has nothing to do with the question of whether the grass is blue or green.

The punishment is because it is not possible for a brave and intelligent creature like you to waste time arguing with a donkey, and on top of that come and bother me with that question."

The worst waste of time is arguing with the fool and fanatic who does not care about truth or reality, but only the victory of his beliefs and illusions. Never waste time on arguments that don't make sense...

There are people who, no matter how much evidence and evidence we present to them, are not in the capacity to understand, and others are blinded by ego, hatred and resentment, and all they want is to be right even if they are not.

When ignorance screams, intelligence is silent. Your peace and quietness are worth more.

Consequences of living between realms

Living between realms, has profound consequences on an individual's understanding of reality, perception of existence, and interactions with both the physical and spiritual worlds. Potential consequences could include:

1. Expanded Consciousness: Living between realms leads to a heightened awareness of spiritual dimensions and realities beyond the physical world, potentially leading to a deeper understanding of existence and the nature of reality.

2. Struggles with Identity: Being caught between realms may create a sense of disconnection or alienation from both the physical and spiritual worlds, leading to struggles with one's sense of identity and belonging.

3. Enhanced Spiritual Abilities: Living between realms grants individuals unique spiritual gifts or abilities, such as heightened intuition, clairvoyance, or the ability to communicate with spiritual beings.

4. Ethical and Moral Challenges: Navigating life between realms presents ethical and moral challenges, as individuals may be tempted to use their spiritual insights or abilities for personal gain or manipulation.

5. Isolation and Loneliness: Being one of the few individuals capable of living between realms leads to feelings of isolation and loneliness, as others may not understand or share their experiences.

6. Increased Vulnerability: Individuals living between realms are more susceptible to spiritual attacks or negative influences from malevolent entities, requiring them to develop strong spiritual defenses and discernment.

7. Quest for Understanding: Living between realms, sparks a lifelong quest for understanding and enlightenment, as individuals seek to unravel the mysteries of existence and their place within the cosmos.

Overall, living between realms is a complex and challenging experience, requiring individuals to navigate a delicate balance between the physical and spiritual dimensions of reality while grappling with the profound implications of their unique existence.

Navigating the Switch from Corporate to Agency: A Tale of Unhelpful Advice

 

Transitioning from corporate to agency can be an exciting yet daunting prospect for many professionals seeking a change of pace or career trajectory. However, as one individual discovered, seeking guidance on this transition isn't always met with the most helpful or relevant responses.

In a previous encounter, the I sought advice on making the switch from corporate communications to an agency environment. Anticipating insightful tips and practical steps, I instead found myself met with arrogance and irrelevant commentry.

The conversation started promisingly enough, with me asking to understand the requirements for transitioning from corporate to an agency role. However, the response I received took an unexpected turn. 

Instead of addressing the question directly, the responder suggested starting from the bottom as an intern, completely disregarding the my extensive 10 years of experience in corporate communications.

What followed was a series of presumptions and judgments, with the responder insinuating that I must be bored in my current career, an assumption that was both unwarranted and dismissive. 

As the conversation veered further off track, focusing on generic workplace advice rather than addressing the specific query, I grew increasingly annoyed and disengaged. In my mind asked myself if he was still talking to me and what on earth he was addressing because it sounded like he was addressing something different.

The encounter reached a tipping point when it became evident that he was neither listening nor providing relevant insights. Feeling confused I made the decision to disengage and left the career seminar.

Furthermore, this encounter has left me questioning my desire to switch to agency life altogether. While agencies may offer unique skills and qualities in corporate communications, such as agility, creativity, and adaptability, I worry that the emphasis on competitiveness and hierarchy may overshadow the collaborative and inclusive environment I value in corporate settings. 

I've always believed that work should shape one's character positively, fostering growth and empathy rather than arrogance and superiority. If agency work entails adopting such traits and looking down on others, then I'd much rather remain in the corporate world. Here, I can continue to thrive, leveraging my diverse skill set and contributing meaningfully without compromising my integrity.

This experience highlights a common challenge faced by professionals seeking guidance on career transitions: the tendency for advice-givers to project their own biases and assumptions onto the situation, rather than offering practical and tailored support.

Navigating a career switch requires careful consideration, strategic planning, and access to relevant information and resources. While advice and guidance can be invaluable in this process, it's essential to seek out mentors and advisors who can offer genuine insights and support based on their own experiences and expertise.

While agencies are often praised for their fast-paced, dynamic nature, skills such as pace efficiency, agility, and attention to detail are undoubtedly valuable and can indeed be learned in both agency and corporate environments. Some corporate environments can also provide ample opportunities to develop and hone them.

In corporate communications, for example, professionals are frequently tasked with managing multiple projects simultaneously, often under tight deadlines. This requires individuals to prioritize tasks, work efficiently, and pay close attention to detail to ensure accuracy and effectiveness.

Moreover, corporate environments increasingly recognize the need for agility and adaptability in today's ever-changing business landscape. As companies strive to stay competitive and relevant, employees are encouraged to embrace innovation, think creatively, and pivot quickly in response to market trends and emerging challenges.

Additionally, attention to detail is a fundamental skill that transcends industry boundaries. Whether drafting corporate communications materials, crafting marketing strategies, or analyzing data, meticulous attention to detail is essential for producing high-quality work that resonates with stakeholders and drives results.

Ultimately, while agencies may offer a unique context for developing these skills, they are by no means exclusive to the agency environment. With the right mindset, opportunities, and support, professionals in corporate settings can cultivate and excel in pace efficiency, agility, and attention to detail, contributing to their personal growth and professional success.

The Betrayal Chapter 20

Excitement about the new life

6 months later

Musuku and Masala have been engaged for over three months now and things have been going great since they last made up after the break they had.

They will be getting married in 3 months time and Musuku has been excited about it since, she and Munangwa decided they would be getting married on the same day to minimize costs and also to ensure they both have the perfect weddings they always dreamt of.

The guys have been hanging out a lot and discussing how they could blow the girls minds away and what kind of rings they should get them.

Most of the expenses were being paid for by Masala since he was the rich one among all of them and he had no problems.

Chidzima was now working in one of Masala's companies as the managing director, the dough was coming in big time and he had already started renovating Munangwa's house.

The four are now looking into buying their own houses as they plan to come back to their own houses after their honey moon.

Musuku calls Munangwa to arrange their house hunting date and find out if Chidzima is free to tag along, the girls have been given the upper power to choose the house as this will be their big gifts from their husbands.

"Hey girl, where you at? Should we come over and pick you guys up or will we meet by the mercury square?" Musuku asked.

"let us meet by the Mercury square, I want us to ride together, Masala and I will swop cars or you and Chidzima so I can ride with you, I have things to talk to you about n private" Munangwa responded.

"Alright then bye see you in 15 bits" Musuku said then hung up.

She then called Masala to ask where he was and to tell him to come pick her up so they could go to the mercury square.

Musukus POV

We got to the square and just as I was about to get off Masala pulled me back in and asked where I was going then he pulled me into a deep kiss before releasing me and telling me "now you can go Mrs Masala to be".

I was dumbstruck and I exited his car and went into Chidzima's one while Chidzima went into Masala's one.

"Hello you, how are you doing?" I asked my best friend as I hugged her.

She hugged me back and she had a strange look on her face.

I remembered the dream I had the previous night of a crying baby who was reaching out for me because some evil forces were trying to draw out her soul.

I told Munangwa about it and she started to cry, we swooped seats so I could drive and I asked her what was wrong as I hugged her, she just continued sobbing uncontrollably and the next thing I heard a loud knock on the window.

It was Chidzima and he wanted to know if Munangwa was okay and why she was crying, we told him she was okay and that he shouldn't worry about her, he walked around the car to go open her door side and then pulled her into his arms and kissed her forehead.

I couldn't help but think they are very adorable and I am happy my friend is getting married to someone who really loves her.

"Will you be okay? Are you sure you do not want me to drive with you?" Chidzima asked as he wiped away her remaining tears.

She nodded reaching out for the tissue I was handing over to her then she blew her nose and smiled like she wasn't the one who was crying at all.

We drove to the La Mocha suburbs as we wanted to view a few houses from there; it is like the Beverly Hills and Sandton of South Africa.

We got off and walked to a park since the guys had not arrived, I wanted to get to the bottom of why my friend cried earlier.

"Start talking, I cannot have you behaving that way again" I said as I looked at her seriously.

"I'm pregnant and I have been having this dreams of spiritual warfare, they want to kill my baby and I wake up tired from fighting every day" she said as she started to sob.

"Oh my goodness babe, so it's your baby that I have been seeing in my dreams all this while? Why didn't you tell me about this sooner?" I asked as I hugged her once more.

"Musuku I am tired, these people will not leave my baby alone, I haven't even told Chidzima about the pregnancy and already I am bothered by the thoughts that I might be losing my baby before even holding her" she said as she wiped her tears.

I saw the fear in her eyes and I felt sorry for her "My little Munangwa, when will you ever understand the power in you though? I guess I will have to mother you till the rapture comes, come now close your eyes let us get rid of this bad dreams clearly you are not ready to be seeing things as yet" I told her.

I prayed for her and intervened for her dreams and revelations to be passed on to me so that I may stand in the gap to fight the battles for her.

Just as I said amen, the guys arrived and we went house viewing, the first house we went into was a double story, the walls were painted in white and there was a lot of glass going on, the rooms were very spacious and the decor was to die for, it felt like my mini heaven on earth.

What I loved was the driveway, the spacious yard, the garden landscaping and of course the glass swimming pool, it had a garage that could fit 6 cars, a cottage outside and the colors that complemented the white walls were warm and earthly.

There was a walk in wardrobe which could make two more other rooms out of it and that just excited me more.

We viewed two more houses one was much of a glass house and it was 15 minutes away from the previous house and the last one was a triple story with everything anyone could ever want in a house.

We decided to buy the first house we viewed and Munangwa and Chidzima went for the glass house, the location was absolutely fabulous as it was a 30 minutes drive to the shopping malls and all the fun stuff, it was located in a hill and the view of the rest of the city was just splendid.

We drove back home after signing the ownership documents and then made a transfer of R 8 million, that was how much our house cost.

Munangwa and Chidzima transferred R 3.5 million for their house and everything was sorted, what remained would be the buying of furniture and incorporating our own personal touch to the look of our houses.

After the house shopping Munangwa and I were over the moon thinking of how shopping would be so much fun whenever we went out, I had a godchild coming  and a new house to fill with new things, how exciting.

We got home and just as I was about to say my goodbyes a call came through Masala's phone and he answered it, it was Masala's cousin Tendani and he was telling Masala that he just came from hospital with his wife and finally she is pregnant.

I could hear the excitement over the phone and I could see how Masala was also happy for them, then he said "so does this mean I have been relieved of my obligations?" the answer was yes man, you can go ahead and marry whoever  you want to, you can even do it tomorrow if it pleases you.

I looked at Masala and I saw there were tears in his eyes, I asked him what was wrong and he told me they were tears of joy because he has been relieved of the family obligation he always worried would come between us.

"What family obligation is that baby? You never told me anything about that" I asked him.

All of a sudden he was uncomfortable talking to me and it seemed like he was eager to go home "uhm nothing you should worry about babe, I never told you because I feared you might leave me, anyway it's all over now and I can be happy with you, nothing can ever come between us" he said as he squashed me in a hug.

I hugged him back and still wondered what this obligation of a secret could be, whatever it was; it gave me no peace at all.

"I know you are saying I should not worry but I would really like if we did not keep secrets away from each other, what is this obligation?" I asked holding his hand.

"well just promise me you are not going to freak out when I tell you because it is kind of huge you know and again promise you will not be angry at me or call things off cos if you do I will die" he said to me with a stern look on his face.

"well get talking already, I am all ears" I said as I felt my heart gain weight in my chest, to be honest I was afraid of what I would hear and I was not comfortable with the setting of not being able to react to it if it would be too much for me to handle.

"since the day I started living with my aunt, I had an obligation to make kids for my cousin with his wife because they believed he is not able to make them on his own as they once sacrificed with his seeds when he was still a baby, my aunt is a witch and to upgrade her powers she kept sacrificing with her son's body parts, first her three daughters died after she sacrificed their whole bodies eventually and that left the remaining son Tendani" he explained.

"Okay so then his wife is pregnant now, I believe that is what I overheard on the call, OMG is she carrying your child? Masala did you cheat on me?" I asked feeling light headed and ready to run out of his car..............

Cliff hanger??? 

The betrayal Chapter 19

What the hell?

Chapter 19

Upon arrival back in the city, Musuku called Masala and they met up in the mercury mall, they were so happy to see each other and they couldn't contain themselves.

They were hugging like a couple that is used to each other and has been dating for long.

"Feels like I have not seen you in forever" Musuku said to Masala.

"I know babe I miss you just as much, I hardly slept because I could not wait to be with you today, and now you are finally in my arms" Masala said as he looked deep into her eyes.

She shied away and but held on to his hand and started walking towards Joy-land.

The couple had fun playing all kinds of games which Masala deliberately let Musuku win except for one, he threw the basket balls into the hoop one after the other until he won 3000 tickets.

He redeemed the tickets for a big brown teddy bear , it was the most adorable thing ever.

They had dinner and he drove her home, when they got to the front of her porch they hugged goodnight and he left.

Masala's POV

The moment I got home I found my aunt waiting for me outside the gate and she looked angry as hell, she was walking up and down the steep and talking to herself.

As soon as i got closer to her she opened the door and pulled me out of the car "what the hell are you doing?

Do you not realise how this excuse of a relationship is going to cost my son?

You need to accomplish the mission you promised before you can even settle down, no one must know about this" she hissed at me.

"I am no longer interested in any accomplishments, I do not owe you anything, if anything, you and your son are the ones that owe me  a hell lot, you have used up my parents funds for your own selfish ambitions and we are about to go broke" I answered back feeling angry all of a sudden.

"You cannot do this, I will not allow you, if I have to I will kill that new girl and that way you will have no reason to feel so high and mighty.

You will not break off the agreement" she said with her eyes on fire for evil, I got a chill down my spine, because I knew she meant it, she was going to kill the girl of my dreams.

I walked past her and asked the security guy to park my car in as I tossed my keys over to him and walked into the house.

"it is time I left this house and found a place of my own and moved out of this house, I will leave them with all these riches, sell my 4cars, leave my beach house for renting and also rent out all our ships and boats in the coast, I will use the money to establish my own business and leave the family company behind, I cannot deal with all this anymore" I thought to myself.

When I entered my bedroom, walking out was Lufuno, my cousin Tendani's wife, she had nothing but a towel on and as soon as she saw me, she threw herself on my bed pulled up the towel to give me a better view of her thighs.

"What on earth do you think you are doing in my room, why must you use my shower and enter my room as you please in my absence? Didn't your husband teach you any manners?" I shouted at her in frustration.

Ever since she married into the family two years ago, she has always tried to seduce me and get into my bed and I have had to resist and reject her time and again, I was getting tired of this constant behavior.

"You know you want me, when last did you touch me? Masala please I need you to make me feel like a woman, your cousin is less of a man than you could ever be, I do not love him anymore, I want you please" she pleaded.

"Get out of my room and don't ever mention about me touching you because I have never touched you, I loved you once and you blew it because of money so leave okay and don't ever enter my room in my absence, even in my presence I don't ever want to see you again" I told her and I opened the door to show her out.

She started to whimper as she touched my face instead of leaving, she kissed my neck and pressed her body against mine "please just this once" she whispered in my ears as her tears dropped on my chest.

"I cant, just go okay, you are my cousins wife now so respect that and let me be, besides, I have found my soul mate, the one that I love and would like to spend the rest of my life with, I can't begin this marriage this way" I told her as I looked into her sad pleading eyes.

I felt the old feelings I once had for her linger somewhere within my heart, I clenched my fists as my hands threatened to touch her, I wanted to take her there and then but I fought the urge and looked away.

She stood tippy toed and kissed me, I just stood still not sure what to do, I wanted to push her off me but I just couldn't, I held on to her and I kissed her back, I allowed all my passions to shower her lips and just when this were about to escalate, I stopped and pushed her off me, we were then on my bed and her towel was off.

I looked at her with disgust and closed my eyes holding my head with both hands "what have I just done? I've betrayed her even before we started, GET OUT" I shouted at her feeling angry from what just happened.

To be honest I did not know if I was angry at her or myself for being so weak and easily influenced, why doesn't she just leave me alone? I really need to get out of here, I am getting tired of this, every night I must be fighting her out of my room, I can't have this anymore.

She ran out of my room and I wiped my lips from the back of my hand and made sure my room was locked in case she would sneak back in at night.

I decided to call Musuku and to be honest I wasn't sure if my need to make the call was sincere of just the guilt killing me, what was I going to say to her and would I tell her what just happened? I do not want to lie to her.

After three rings she picked up and she sounded a bit off "hello babe, what are you up to?"

"Nothing much, I'm just trying to deal with the revelation I just received right now and I am wondering just how you intend to make this work" she replied.

"Uhm babe I'm confused, what are you talking about?" I retorted.

"I mean the deception that is beginning in such an early age of this newly found relationship; it seems you are not being totally honest with me and that is not settling very well within me" she said.

"Wait babe, what are you going on about, what am I not being honest about and where do you get such crazy ideas about me?" I asked still acting dumb.

My mind was so busy trying to figure out how she could know about what happened tonight and if she was actually referring to the incident with Lufuno, my heart skipped two beats at the horrors of what would happen if she was talking about what I just thought.

"I just received a revelation that you are hiding something from me and it seems like you will be deceiving me a whole lot more from what I saw but what I hate is that nothing is clear and I have to depend on your explanations to be out in the open and to understand what is going on" she explained.

"To make matters worse I even prayed about it and nothing further was revealed, I am told this is a portion of my own desires and therefore I must exercise my own godly powers on earth and make my own choices and decisions" she ranted sounding mighty frustrated.

"Babe relax, you are not making any sense right now, you are probably making a mountain out of a molehill, maybe you are just so scared of loosing me that its making you paranoid and you are starting to create theories and mistaking them to be revelations" I tried to convince her with the hope that she buys into my story.

"No I have never made such mistakes my whole life; I know a revelation when I see it because it comes in a certain form which I am not willing explain right now" she said.

"In fact you know what? I think I need time to just be in my own space because right now my mind is not functioning the way it should, I am not even sure about my gifts anymore, maybe this relationship is just too bad for me, just give me some space and I will call you back as soon as I have my feelings sorted" She said then hung up.

"Hello, babe wait please, hello, hell............."

My goodness what is all this? Just like that she is asking for space, what is happening though? Could she really have gotten a revelation of the mistake? I can't lose her like this; I would just be a failure like my father and I cannot afford that at all.

At that I switched off the lights and prayed for forgiveness from God for misleading the poor girl, it does not make sense why I would try and kill her gift by making her doubt it.

I tried calling her one last time but failed to get through; it was as though each time I called she was simply pressing the reject button, frustration took me over and I wept below my blankets "Lord I am sorry, if you can give me one last chance to make things right, I will treat her like a queen, please bring her back to me, I need my wife" I wept in the darkness before there was a knock on the door.

I was astonished as to who would knock at that time of the hour, when I looked at the time it was 11pm, I quickly got out of bed and went to the bathroom to clean my face before I went to go open the door.

WHAT THE HELL?...................................